Summer Secrets
“I’m on day four of not drinking, and while I can’t say it has been exactly easy, I’m doing it, and without help, at that.
I told all the girls at work, so they don’t encourage me, and this week I’ve opted out of the press launches, because while I’m delighted at this newfound willpower, I know it’s only going to work if I stay away from situations where I might be tempted.
More than anything, I can’t believe I’m not drinking given what I now know about my life. Drink has always been my first port of call when anything emotional happens in my life, and I’m being forced to feel these feelings, reconcile myself with the fact that I have a different father, without anything to numb me, to help me slip into a state of calm oblivion.
Actually, that’s not strictly true. Sam, at work, slipped me some Valium this week, which has helped enormously. I’m only supposed to take one a day, but they wear off so quickly I’ve found myself taking them every few hours, although yesterday he kept asking i...f I was okay, terrified, I think, that I had overdosed.MoreLess
I told all the girls at work, so they don’t encourage me, and this week I’ve opted out of the press launches, because while I’m delighted at this newfound willpower, I know it’s only going to work if I stay away from situations where I might be tempted.
More than anything, I can’t believe I’m not drinking given what I now know about my life. Drink has always been my first port of call when anything emotional happens in my life, and I’m being forced to feel these feelings, reconcile myself with the fact that I have a different father, without anything to numb me, to help me slip into a state of calm oblivion.
Actually, that’s not strictly true. Sam, at work, slipped me some Valium this week, which has helped enormously. I’m only supposed to take one a day, but they wear off so quickly I’ve found myself taking them every few hours, although yesterday he kept asking i...f I was okay, terrified, I think, that I had overdosed.MoreLess
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